I love him... I love him not...

Seriously... this whole relationship between me and Ronnie is a joke. First we see each other and claim that it's "love at first sight". It felt like that, but that was years ago. Ever since then we've just pushed it off.. we've had other crushes, but we still have each other. It's weird. Today I tried telling him that we needed a break... I needed a break because all he did was talk about sex... or sex related topics... or my butt. They're all very interesting topics, but I've just had enough. He understood and we went on a "break". About two seconds later we begin talking again. (I asked him whether he had a blow job before - he answered yes. I believed that because he's totally focused on that nowadays. Me not so much...) So ya I told him that i liked/loved him for so long and now I was just confused. He said "Me too." So now we've decided to just talk about topics not sex-related and see how it works out because I want to see if we could do it. My bet is that we can't.. Stay tuned because I'm sure that I'll be adding more soon.

Crazy in love?
Starlet.

Secretly freaking out...

Right now I'm just feeling so overwhelmed. Today I had a whole plan of what I was going to do today and none of that was done. Instead I went to my grandma's and found junk for the Garage Sale. I'm seriously fed up with volunteering right now. I'm fed up with summatives, with school work, with friends, with teachers, with everything. This long weekend was supposed to be my lil "escape" from school and it wasn't. I'm just really tired and I can't deal with it anymore. I wish I could just get away for a lil bit. I need some more sleep, I need some more energy.. I just need some more time.

I seriously have so many things to do.. I haven't started my summatives.. I have no idea what we have to do for English... I'm just screwed. I need someone to just help me... I'd call Romeo, but then I'd be doing something that I shouldn't.. I'm stuck..

Hopefully I'll be able to figure some stuff out tonight, if not then I might be repeating Grade 11 again. lol.

Bye guys,
Starlet.

Somebody's Somebody.

Wish I had somebody... Wish I was somebody's baby...

Before I never really considered liking him, but after friends talking and reflecting. I think I've started to like him. He's funny, athletic, cute, and he just likes to have fun. I've always had an idea of what "my type" is and I think he fits it... actually I know he fits it.

Watchin' lovers walkin'... Hand in hand they pass me by... Wish I was one of them... Wish I had somebody...

I just don't want to get my hopes up. Whenever I hope for something I'm usually let down so that's why I'm trying to keep this crush at arms length. I'm pulling away from the idea of me and Romeo getting together just yet. I'm really interested in seeing if a relationship could happen between me and this new guy.

What I'm looking for... Is someone to love me more... Than I've been loved before... With love so right... What I need to findIs someone to hold me tight...

So what I'm going to do is continue to be me and see what happens. There will either be a relationship or there won't be... I really have nothing to lose...

Later,
Starlet.

Lyrics; Somebody's Somebody. Christina Aguilera.

Is this too sexy?

You know my hips don't lie... And I'm starting to feel it's right... All the attraction, the tension... Don't you see baby, this is perfection...

Today I went to work and that was no fun, but tonight I finally got to upload a picture that I really wanted to upload. I showed Chris and Steph the pic and they loved it. Steph even said that we should use the picture for one of the articles in the magazine. She's seriously crazy... because it's not like the pic is just a pic of my face.

The picture can be found on the right. Leave comments on what you think. Although I know that it's not suitable for our magazine... unless we changed it to something a lil less teen/family oriented. lol.

Oh well.. that's all I wanted to say. I'm probably going to use that pic to seek revenge or certain people who are acting like jerks. It'll make me happy. lol. Ok that's it.

Ciao,
Starlet.

Lyrics; Hips Don't Lie. Shakira.

Banana Pancakes...

Happy Birthday to you... Happy birthday to you... Happy birthday dear Becky... Happy Birthday to you!

Last night was Beckster's bday - Happy 17th girl! We went to Pickle Barrel for dinner and then went back to her house to sleepover. We slept outside in a tent (me, becky and madz) and omg... the tent was so huge. It was made for 8 people and it was seriously like a small circus tent. lol. I loved it. I could stand up in it and it was just so cool. We've decided we're going to be using it whenever we sleepover at peoples' houses.

Well can't you see that it's just raining... there ain't no need to go outside...

This morning we woke up pretty early (around 7.30ish?) and we were really hungry. It was raining outside, but we were fine in the tent. Although since we were craving sugar-ish things we went inside the house. Maddy and I made banana pancakes for Becky. Becky ended up making some London tea and it was a really good breakfast.

Maybe we can sleep in... make you banana pancakes... pretend like it's the weekend now...

The pancakes were really good and our little party was a lot of fun. Oh and I'm sure people were wondering what we did in the tent... lol. Truth or Dare, random hate rants about certain people (lol!) and someone touched someone which was very awkward. lol. Yes it was very fun and we ended up going to bed at like 2.30am

Hope you loved your birthday Becky (and Raffi)!
<3 Starlet.

Lyrics; Banana Pancakes. Jack Johnson.